All of the Rogers Playlist
There are plotline and end-of-story spoilers in here! If you haven’t read All of the Rogers, I recommend you read the book first. I really feel like it’s a story you should go into with an open mind and very few expectations.
I love to jog. When I have a playlist that can take my mind away, there’s no telling how long I’ll be out jogging for. It’s like I black out and then I realize I just ran for five miles. Only I don’t black out. I’m just lost daydreaming so deeply to the music I’m listening to, I forget that my body is moving. When I was writing All of the Rogers, this is the playlist I listened to. Some were added after I finished the book and some were just songs that reminded me of high school and helped bring me back to that time. Now when I listen to this playlist, it brings me back to Kerri and Roger. I fell so hard in love with those two, it’s been hard to let go.
Fantasy by Mariah Carey: A great opener! This is the one song that reminded me of being in high school and having a HUGE crush. I love the bubbliness and energy of it. It makes me want to bounce, jump and feel young and hopeful. This is just how Kerri felt when she first started talking to Roger. Her crush was coming to fruition and it made her feel on top of the world.
Young Love by Kip Moore: These lyrics must be just how Kerri and Roger must have felt for each other when they first started dating. They became really close really fast. I love how this song even touches on sneaking around and getting picked up at a neighbor's house so her parents won’t know. Just how Roger always picked up and dropped of Kerri at Neve’s house or the corner. I also love how this song captures the essence of teens in love feeling invisible but not knowing anything at all.
Creep by Radiohead: This song really captures so much of the whole book - at least Rogers side of it and how he grew to feel about Kerri. There relationship certainly didn’t start out this way, but it quickly became co-dependent. Roger even knew that this song reminded him of his relationship with Kerri. And the intensity of the song is a good match for the intensity of their young relationship and Roger’s feelings. This is one of the bigger red flags that Kerri was just too young to see. Roger was a lot more insecure than anyone could have imagined.
Sail by Awlonation: It’s as if this song is in Roger’s head. “This is how I show my love. I made it in my mind because I blame it on my ADD baby.” Roger couldn’t have said it better himself. This song captures him so well. I also think there’s a paranoia in Roger about losing Kerri and it makes him crazy. Especially watching this video, it’s obvious this song has a lot to do with paranoia and obsession.
Ghetto Superstar by Ol’ Dirty Bastard and Maya: And back to being more light hearted. Roger and Kerri’s relationship was a lot of back and forth in the book and I like getting pulled back and remembering that they are just kids having fun. This song reminds me of prom when I was in high school (really showing my age here). Not so much for the lyrics but because of the beat, energy and hearing it so many times back then. For the book, it reminds me maybe a little more of homecoming. But just like homecoming, they were still just kids wanting to have fun at Prom… it just didn’t end up the way Kerri wanted it too.
The Funeral by Band of Horses: This is one of my favorite songs. I have a very unique take on it. I don’t think of this song as singing about a literal funeral. I feel as if this song is really about continuing a relationship you know won’t work. As if you’re starting something you know will die before you even get going with it. After prom was a pivotal moment for Kerri. I think that was truly the first time she felt like she wanted to, and should, break up with Roger - but she just couldn’t. So moving forward, she had it in her head that it was always going to end. Roger never felt that way and Kerri had moved on so far from her original feelings for Roger, she wasn’t able to look back anymore. And yet, she wasn’t strong enough to let go of him either.
End of the Road by Boyz II Men: So cheesy, I know! But come on! Kerri and Roger’s relationship is literally at the end of the road for them. Roger might not realize it yet, but Kerri and the rest of us surely do. I feel like if Roger knew the relationship was coming to an end, he would have sang this song to Kerri.
Say Something by A Great Big World & Christina Aguilera: This is my absolute favorite version of the song. It brings me so many emotions and feels so powerful. This would be the song that Kerri sings to Roger. She loves him so much, but she simply gives up on them. It hurts her deeply, even though it’s really the right thing to do. I can’t watch this video without balling. And I can’t read All of the Rogers without balling - they both break my heart every time.
Over You by Miranda Lambert: I’m pretty sure that I heard this song was written by Blake Shelton about his brother who passed away when they were younger. I think that’s why it sounds so honest. Kerri undoubtedly loved Roger but her feelings are so conflicting because she’s so confused by his death. And that horrible horrible feeling that you’ll never feel okay again and that you’ll never move on from this heartbreaking tragedy. That’s how a lot of people feel about losing a loved one, but her feelings also have a lot to do with her youth and inexperience with life. She handles it as best she can and eventually, she becomes stronger for it.
When We Were Young by Adele: If All of the Rogers was made into a movie, I can visualize this song being played during the ending credits. I love how Roger will always be Kerri’s greatest memory of her youth. I love thinking about her looking back on their relationship and glorifying it, thinking how strong and magical their love was. And it really was. He will be with her through everything she does for the rest of her life. She even kept his memory so strongly with her when she fell in love with Garrett - after lots of grieving, healing and time. She was able to be in a healthy relationship from learning from her relationship with Roger.